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08:49am 22/11/2010

For the first time in a very long time I am truly happy!

For the longest time I have kept my heart hidden away from the world to keep it from being broken again. I even went as far as convincing myself that I was incapable of love in all its forms to keep to myself.

I had one best friend in the entire world that I ever showed my emotions to but even then I kept my distance. We would nervously laugh about love and how we would be staying single forever. But more than anything I wanted to blurt out "I LOVE YOU" to this person and I often did after I had hung up on skype or msn. I was so afraid that they wouldn't feel the same way about me and that telling them would ruin our friendship.

One day a rather sensitive subject came up and the nervous laughter was there again except this time it was different. My friend seemed a little upset. I asked them what was wrong and they told me that it was nothing, it was silly and they were reading too much into things.

I'm not entirely sure what made me take the proverbial leap from the lions head but I did. I asked them if they loved me... and they said yes.

We loved each other and meant it. It was strange and sudden but it felt like we knew all along. It was like a strange kind of medicine, I didn't ache all over like I normally did, and I didn't need my sleeping pills to get a full night of sleep. I was so happy. I was... content.

I don't want you to change for me, I want you to be who you want to be because I love you for you!

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Bloodwolves Portrait!  
03:30am 13/02/2010

I drew something for my good buddy Bloodwolves. I tried using a slightly different style with this one.

location: My Room
mood: cheerfulcheerful
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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! (I draw'd)  
02:16am 01/01/2010

I made a pic for bloodwolves :D

and a bonus icon

I hope you like buddy!

mood: happyhappy
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I got my steam account back!  
06:33pm 11/11/2009
And the guy that hacked it got uber b&. I'm very happy about this!. I'm gonna go build a mech now :D
mood: cheerfulcheerful
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I'm pretty pissed  
08:13pm 08/11/2009
Someone named |FDE| Assassin hijacked my steam account which used to be here. I've contacted steam but they won't get back to me for 1-3 business days. I'm pretty peev'd right now >:(
mood: angryangry
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The big switch  
11:10am 05/11/2009

Today I'm switching from DSL to Cable! Wish me luck!


mood: anxiousanxious
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12:33am 05/11/2009

It seemed like a good idea at the time... xD

mood: amusedamused
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Pre-Halloween Halloween Carnival  
08:41pm 29/10/2009
There's going to be a Halloween carnival at the Modesto Junior College West Campus (2201 blue gum ave.). There's no fee to get in and anyone can come. Nuke and I are going to be there. I'll be dressed as a pirate :D
mood: chipperchipper
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Game Booster  
01:10pm 27/10/2009
Wow, I found this program called Game Booster that shuts down all the nonessential background programs and processes, then brings them all back when you need them again! This is great news for me because I play very render intensive games like Garry's Mod and Fallout 3. Its also great for larger art programs like Photoshop and zBrush. I've got like zero lag for all of these programs, I'm very happy! :D
mood: excitedexcited
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A great day!  
08:05pm 24/10/2009

What an awesome day today! Boy, it was exciting!

First I got to go to a Michael Jackson look alike contest at the Spirit Halloween store with Nuke. It was pretty fun, there was music and kids dressed up like Michael Jackson dancing in front of the DJ setup. After a while we decided to go outside, wait by the car and watch Bloodwolves do his job. He was really good at getting peoples attention and getting them to pull in and have a look around the store. We waited until he took his break so we wouldn't get him in trouble. When he did we walked up to him and said hi, then we went inside and had a conversation that covered a lot of topics in a short period of time. Bloodwolves was fun to talk to and really nice! After his break was over we waited out on the sidewalk outside for him to get suited back up. When he came back out, this time in an awesome Captain America t-shirt, we said goodbye to each other and we let him get back to work. I was a bit concerned because it was a warm day and he didn't have a fan in his suit or anything to cool him off so we stopped by a store around the corner and bought a Gatorade for him. We came back and offered it to him but he said it was ok and he didn't need it so we said goodbye again, and we were off.

Next we went to Ihop next and had a late lunch/early dinner. I really didn't feel that hungry when we got there but I finished my whole meal and some of Nuke's. After we were all finished eating we went to The QueenBean, had some coffee (Nuke had soda cuz he hates coffee) and played Jenga. I got a good laugh every time it would fall over and Nuke would panic about it, even if it was falling over on my turn.

After that we both went home and I started drawing while listening to Michael Jackson's Billie Jean because I still have stuck in my head. xD

So today was a really great day and I hope that we can all do it again sometime soon! :D

mood: cheerfulcheerful
music: Michael Jackson - Billie Jean
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